pain.

Sometimes, i always try to be a cheerfull person. But i can't.
I always want to say hello when i pass my neighbour. But too shy.
I don't know how to be like that.
Like what people do sometimes.
Once i ask my friends, how to say hello to my neighbour like you did?
Just say hello then. I wish it was easy like what you say.

I always feels so nerverous when i get in into a room full of strangers. Its feels like their eys catching me.

Im scared.
Confused.

I always try to make somebody happy because of me. Try to buy what they wanted. Do what makes their smile. I did it. Aint got any feed back.

I always respect everyone. And i always try to keep it. Aint got any feed back too.  Its okay. I can go back to my bed room and crying in silent. No body knows.

It feels like im full of sadnes. No joy in my life. I always praying for happiness. For a good life. For me. For my loved. Or for haters. I always pray for it.

I always imagine if i am a friendly person and give a positive vibes to peoples around me. I must be a happiest and most blessed girl in the world.